Good Grief

What does grief look like?  It is presenting itself in a wide spectrum.  Sometimes feeling completely incapable of handling something as ordinary as sitting in traffic, listening to a song on the radio, or engaging in a casual conversation.  Sitting in a therapy session incapable of breathing because the therapist asked Marlowe's name and I couldn't get it out.  To say we have a lot of work ahead of us is an understatement of gargantuan proportions.  There is a lifetime of work ahead of us.  There is no closure, no end, only adjusting and healing.  As with most tasks we take on, we're going full force.  Therapy, support groups, doctors appointments.  Reprogramming what the future looks like, while allowing as much slack as possible.  Since the day Marlowe was born, we've been taking each day as it comes, and we have to continue to allow ourselves to figure out what we need and what we can handle day by day.